For many years now, I have used my voice for God. I have sung of his goodness and his love in my life. I have chosen songs with poignant messages of who he is, and used them with words they bring to my mind, to share with others how deeply he has affected me. Always hoping they evoke images in someone else's mind that stir their hearts in response to him too! Now it seems that time might be over.
After losing my voice a year or so ago, I thought it might never come back. Late last year, for one more church worship, I was able to sing with all my heart as I used to. And I was glad, thinking I'd get more opportunities to do that. But leading worship has not happened for a while, and I'm older, and my voice is becoming froggy and weak from disuse. Not that I don't sing at home 😄, but I struggle when I do. Makes me a little sad. And I guess that's because it has been a part of my life I've enjoyed so much!
But I'm beginning to understand - it's another of life's seasons. A bit like the motherhood that I've had to reluctantly step back from. I loved that season too. And I miss it. But that's because it was good and I have so many lovely memories in that season.
Seasons change. They are changing now. And my life is changing. And while I might miss what was, the new season moving in will bring with it its own beautiful memories and rewards. And maybe writing is my path of expression of who he is in my life now. Still hoping I manage to share with your heart how beautiful he is to mine. ❤️
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