If you are still trying to be better because you owe God so much - you are doing it wrong! It only leads to constant disappointment with our failures. That is not the way it works! Concentrate instead on falling in love with the love that bought you freedom!! That is what changes you!!! You no longer want to do anything wrong! You see through the facade of satisfaction there to the emptiness beyond, and recognise that the only true depth of completeness is found in your heart connection with him. That can't be done with head knowledge. It's deep heart love that changes you.
