I wrote this a long time ago ... but it's still very powerful to me ...
The struggle to be authentically His ...
'If all I had was Your word Lord
To insist on Your love for me -
Then perhaps I'd consider it emptied
By all the falsehood in me.
For so many times I have wandered
From the path You have shown me to tread.
And so many times I have failed You
When I've been so faithfully led.
I sit and ponder my weakness
And wonder if I'll ever be
The pure and fitting example
A Christian is meant to be.
I'm so tempted to give up Lord -
To tell You to go on alone.
For I don't feel I'm worth all the effort
That You've consistently shown.
But I look to the cross ... and it draws me
To give my self back to You.
For I can not deny such expression
Of what I am worth to You.'
