Who Shapes You?

Years ago in my life, I was filled with misery about how I was being treated throughout my life. I felt like I was a good person who tried my hardest and I deserved to be treated better. I became angry with what I saw to be unfair returns for what I put in. And I chose to rebel against "being good" as it seemed to not get me anywhere. Others, who weren't so concerned about "goodness" seemed to have a more exciting and fun life than me. I wanted some of that. In actuality I was angry at those who didn't return my love as I thought they should. And I thought I had a right to "hit back".

That path brought with it, pain that I never wanted to know. To this day it haunts me, even though I know I'm forgiven and new. If there was any way to cut that section of my life story out of my history, I would! But it's there. And it definitely humbles me.

It turned up in my prayer time again this morning. He knows how much it bothers me. But when it comes up, he uses it for teaching moments. This morning I felt him say something profound. "You let them shape you." Eye opening! I did! I let another shape me. Gave up my integrity - who I was made to be - who I knew I was in Jesus. And I allowed the way another treated me, to give me licence to act poorly.

Worst thing I've ever done. God alone has the right to shape me. He alone brings the best and brightest out of me. If only I'd remained true to who I am in him, I never would have dealt with the horrific repercussions of my actions. I sold out to an excuse. And it broke me down. I pray I never make that same mistake again. That I will remain true to who my God has shaped me to be no matter what comes my way from anyone.

No one else gets to shape who I am. Only him. Don't make my mistake. Don't sell out to excuses to allow you to make bad decisions. Don't ever allow anyone to shape you! Only him. Because his way alone is for the best you!